I Wish I Could BE Like Everyone Else

Today I volunteered at the zoo and I am wiped out from just a few hours of standing. I could hardly walk to my car my feet were so swollen and painful. I would have loved to have stayed longer but physically couldn't take it. I was too embarrassed to ask to take a break and sit. I see others around me walking around and wish I could be like everyone else. I want so bad to have a regular life but between the pills I take, the doctor appointments and having to rest all the time I am afraid that will never be possible. I hate sounding like a whiner so I try not to complain out loud. I love being at the zoo and it is very good for me to be out with people. I haven't felt needed and productive for a long time. Autoimmune disease SUCKS!!